Final Fantasy X. Man. Final Fantasy X. There's no RPG that I have more conflicted feelings on, and it has nothing to do with the game itself. I absolutely loved FFX from the moment that I laid eyes on it; I used to make my friends watch that amazing intro cinematic. The sphere grid is absolutely my favourite leveling system in any game ever, and it left such an impression on me that, to this day, just a screenshot of a similar system will get me incredibly excited. I sunk a hundred hours into Path of Exile, a game in a genre that I don't even like, based solely on seeing its sexy sphere grid.
So, given that, why am I conflicted? Let me tell you a story.
I sunk hundreds of hours into Final Fantasy X. I had a maxed-out blitzball team composed solely of the original Aurochs that I'd ground up from nothing. I raced my chocobos, caught my butterflies, and dodged my lightning bolts (I finally got the 200 while watching Letterman on my split-screen TV and only half paying attention to what I was doing). I was working on the post-game boss fights and just cleaning up a few remaining loose ends before I would finally allow myself to complete the main narrative and see the ending. And then my cousin asked if he could have a copy of my save file, because he had missed some Al Bhed primers and wanted them all so that he could play through it again and read the Al Bhed dialogue, and I of course had found them all. I think you see where this is going.
I was in the room, and I watched him do it. He just had a brain fart. It happens to the best of us. I watched as he copied his file and replaced mine with it. I swear all of the blood must have drained from my face. In my memory, I fell to my knees, but that was probably just metaphorical, because I was likely sitting. I wasn't even mad. I was just... I just felt dead inside. Privileged as I was, and ridiculous as it feels to say, I'd never felt such a sense of loss in my life before. You could tell that he felt awful, but I could barely even hear him anymore. I was just delivering terse one-word replies as I desperately tried to process what had just happened.
He offered to let me use his save file so that I could see the ending. After he left, I loaded it up and went to the last area. I got into a battle, and saw that his Tidus was a murder machine with 10 times as much HP as everyone else, and I just got up and quietly shut off the PS2. My team, of course, had all participated in every battle and were equally leveled. I couldn't go from my party that had been carefully crafted over hundreds of hours to this... mockery. I've still never seen the ending to FFX, and I never want to. It ended on that day for me.